
I LIKE THIS LIST: SEE NO. 15: IT EXPLAINS PARTLY WHY I’M MAKING SUCH A RADICAL CHANGE IN MY LIFE COME SUNDAY
The world is my parish.”
— John Wesley,
Anglican priest and founder of the Methodist Movement
A dear friend who subscribes to the wonderful Daily Mutts comic strip on-line–which comes with a daily quote attached to it–emailed today’s Mutts edition to me with a note from her that said: “Today’s daily quote from Mutts has you all over it.”
The daily quote is one from Oprah Winfrey, who said:
“There is no paycheck that can equal the feeling of contentment that comes from being the person you are meant to be.”
Well my dear friend Judy certainly knows me. She knows and seems to understand why I resigned from the security of a perfectly secure job as chaplain, for one of the best hospitals in the world (Baylor in Dallas), to go off to live in a Mayan village in the tropical forest in far western Belize, a mere walk away from the border of Guatemala. (See here for a look at San Ignacio, not far from where I’m settling.)
That move from the security of 62 years of life in the Greatest Nation on Earth–I’m talking about Texas Our Texas (all hail the mighty state and pass the Lone Star Longneck)–will happen this Sunday, God willing and the creeks don’t rise, when I head for a whole new chapter in life in Belize.
I’ve never been to Belize.
Yet.
I don’t even know anyone in Belize except the American and Canadian expats with whom I’ve developed some online relationships. And I also hired the services of a former California resident who owns and operates a relocation service in the very part of Belize–the Cayo District–where I have a rental house all ready for my move-in.
Being the old newspaper scribe that I am, I’ve done my research on Belize, and I’ve done research about as thorough as one can do, I think, without going there. So I think I do have a very good sense of what the good, the bad and the ugly of life there will be. And the aforementioned contact with the relocation service, thankfully, is quite honest in telling people the good, the bad and the ugly about life in Belize. She’s not selling pipe dreams to people who watch too much House Hunters International and see those dream homes in Belize on that popular cable TV show.
That said, I know–as everyone in the world does–that Belize is one of the most beautiful places on earth; that some of the islands and coastal areas are playgrounds of the rich and famous; and that some of the tropical forests are lush and ripe for adventurous spirits (like me) who love to hike and swim around in dark water caves and . . . well, Belize is one of the jewels in Central America and the Caribbean. Most people know that.
And then there’s Cancun . . . a mere 5-hour bus ride up the coastline. There’s so much to do and fun to be had in and near Belize, and so little time.
But then there’s that whole other laid-back Belize, certain population centers where Americans and Canadians and even some Europeans move down and live well on little money because of the seriously low cost of living. Some retire there, some quit the rat race and move there to open bars or shops or businesses.
Those worldly expats tell me constantly in our online correspondence how hospitable and friendly the people of Belize are, as well as how violent certain areas in Belize are. One doesn’t want to tarry in the slums of parts of Belize City, they tell me, where the homicide rates are right up there with the Juarez, Mexicos of the world.
But I’ve been on church mission trips to build homes for desperate families literally living in cardboard houses Juarez, so it’s not like I don’t have some sense of what the violent and destitute areas of Belize are undoubtedly like.
Every country has it’s good, bad, beautiful and its frightening.
But having seen a lot of the world as a missionary-minded clergyman, and long before that as an ambitious newspaper scribe, I’m going all-out 3rd World with my eyes wide open, always watching my back, never drawing attention to myself among the native peoples unless it is with a friendly smile that I hope will elicit a smile in return.
I find that a smile is the universal language. A few years ago I ventured off on a broken-down bus to a village in Central China where I was the only non-Chinese person in sight. People looked at me like I had just dropped in from a planet yet to be discovered. Not one of them I encountered spoke English. But I just smiled at them. Ninety five percent smiled back at me.
Who knows: Maybe more smiling could save the world from what sometimes seems like sure destruction.
Whatever happens to me in Belize, whatever else I find when I take up the writing life and connect with churches and missionaries in Belize to discern why in the world God is calling me to such a 3rd World country where life will be fun but also challenging and often daunting–I go there knowing that I’d rather be the person God means for me to be than have the security of a paycheck.
I just know I have to go because God is calling me to Belize, and it’s not the first time God has tapped me on the shoulder and redirected my entire life. God called me with a very clear and intense call to a life in ordained ministry back in the late nineties, until I finally gave in to that call and resigned from a plenty secure career with The Houston Chronicle as a reporter whose office wall was wallpapered with journalism awards.
With that resignation and change of life–which shocked kith and kin and coworkers who thought I’d maybe lost my mind–I enrolled in seminary and in a few short years, I got all “robed up” for my ordination one day. It was one of the greatest days of my life.
I tuned out those who said I was crazy or who feared I’d lost my mind.
I’d rather be who God meant me to be or do–and who or what I want and choose to be and do– than worry about what somebody thinks about me.
Contentment and responding to God’s call far exceeded my desire or need for a secure job and paycheck when I left a plenty good journalism career of 30-plus years.
Contentment and responding to God’s calling me to Belize far exceed my desire or need for a secure job and paycheck now.
My friend Judy certainly knows me, having sent me that Oprah quote.
I don’t expect all people, with the exception of clergy people or folks of deep faith who can somewhat understand the deep but intense mystery of a calling from God, to understand why I’m moving out of the U.S.A., quite possibly for the rest of my days. I can rattle off any number of reasons I’m doing this–I want to do some serious writing; I want to immerse myself in the kind of Latin/Caribbean culture and language that appeal to my worldly sensibilities; I want to connect with people of faith who are doing heroic work living with and lifting up folks living in 3rd World poverty of the sort we Americans can hardly imagine.
Those who know me know the other Paul, of course, who loves himself a large time yucking it up with friends over a frozen concoction. There will be play days in beautiful Belize, so don’t worry too much about your favorite blogger, who will be blogging from time to time.
Just stay tuned to Jitterbuggingforjesus.com, the blog that is saving the world with its wit, wisdom, provocations and stimulations while possibly (probably!) alienating whole towns, nations, cities and states.
And come see me. The villagers of San Jose Succotz in the Cayo District of Belize will know how to find me, I’m sure.
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